The Beginning of the end?

I have to agree with Painting Pimp that there seems to be some barrier between the communication of men and women. More specifically on the male side. I think of myself as an honest person, who will tell it like it is and not string someone along. I'm not going to tell you I "need a break" or "now just isn't the right time." Because quite frankly. That is just going to give you hope that something is possible in the future. And who needs to waste their time waiting around.
I was quite surprised that when 5-0 sent me the dreaded "we rushed into this, I'm not sure if I'm ready, i need a break to think" speech he sent via text message. Really? Listen, I know, I get it. I don't like confrontation either. But this really should have at least been a phone conversation. Honestly, I'm guessing he didn't want to be confronted about some 'other issue' I stupidly made a point to bring up. I KNOW! IM AN IDIOT! I WAS PMS-ING AND COULDN'T HELP MYSELF.
Quite frankly, I have to agree with you 5-0. This whole thing with us went from 0-100 fast. And I have been thinking it the whole time. But guess what. That's not normally how I operate. And a girl cant help herself. If the guy i'm dating is playing the bf card and setting the pace... i will fall in line, unless of course I wasn't into it. So please. Don't make me feel like i'm the one rushing things.. when you have been in control this entire time.
No, I don't want this to be the end of 5-0. Like I have said, he is an amazing person and very kind, and one of the few people I have had true feelings for in some time. But I can't help to think that this "break" was only a gentle way of putting the inevitable... break up. Is that even what you call it when you have been dating for 3 weeks?
Its sad. And if this truly is the end of our "relationship" then its time for me to take a break from dating. Seriously. It is exhausting. I have had to deal with shit like this since January and I need a break!!

Men and Women, this is truth:
Dating is great for the first week or 2. After that it, it sucks until you put a name on it.

To Date, or not to Date?

That is the question isn't it?

Ugh, I swear this is the worst part about dating. When you reach that point where you start to wonder if and how many other people they are dating. And you wonder if its too early to be thinking that, which it almost always is. And you wonder, Should I be dating other people too? But then you think, well, I don't want to be dating anyone else. But you feel like you should be if its too soon to be thinking you shouldn't be with this other person.

In short.. way too many thoughts. Way too many things you can never fully understand or figure out unless you bring it up.

Its been 3 weeks dating 5-o and I only recently was hit with the thought of.. is he dating? Literally, last night.

It all started because he joked that i sent him dirty texts on Friday when I was drunk. Which I quickly reminded with proof of text history that I did no such thing. The unsettling part was when I said he must have received them from someone else, hes said nothing. Nothing at all to confirm or deny. Which is basically confirming. I had no idea what to say. And i guess it didn't really hit me until this morning. That is not good.

So I found myself thinking the dreaded questions... Who is it? How many? How serious?

This blows.. up the asshole.

The sad thing is.. I'm falling for this guy, and if we stopped seeing each other, i would probably be taking a much need break from dating....

I hate this shit.