To Date, or not to Date?

That is the question isn't it?

Ugh, I swear this is the worst part about dating. When you reach that point where you start to wonder if and how many other people they are dating. And you wonder if its too early to be thinking that, which it almost always is. And you wonder, Should I be dating other people too? But then you think, well, I don't want to be dating anyone else. But you feel like you should be if its too soon to be thinking you shouldn't be with this other person.

In short.. way too many thoughts. Way too many things you can never fully understand or figure out unless you bring it up.

Its been 3 weeks dating 5-o and I only recently was hit with the thought of.. is he dating? Literally, last night.

It all started because he joked that i sent him dirty texts on Friday when I was drunk. Which I quickly reminded with proof of text history that I did no such thing. The unsettling part was when I said he must have received them from someone else, hes said nothing. Nothing at all to confirm or deny. Which is basically confirming. I had no idea what to say. And i guess it didn't really hit me until this morning. That is not good.

So I found myself thinking the dreaded questions... Who is it? How many? How serious?

This blows.. up the asshole.

The sad thing is.. I'm falling for this guy, and if we stopped seeing each other, i would probably be taking a much need break from dating....

I hate this shit.